Girl,
It is me again. So please to read your another mail in a fresh day. As you know I am like a guy who is being submerged in a sweet happiness. I got the perception and I like it. Ok, I will take your advice not to write email to YOU through office computer. It is our privacy, you and I don’t like to be peeped by the third one. Today I did run in the raining in the park with very few people around, so good, so comfortable, just like yesterday. I really seek for such an environment surroundings, as you know, I don’t like a noise, neither too many people gathering together. I prefer a piece of place where there are some greens like trees , grasses or hills under sights, I will sit down to read, to think, to recall and to create. That is me who in fact really prefer staying in the countryside to living in a city.
It is much strange that I have know you for two years, and nearly everyday we can meet each other, but I never pay much closed attentions to you, and understand you a little in result. These days, the trip to Ling An in particular, I find I completely understand and feel you, your idea, your rational character, as a girl your dream or life goal, all this makes me realize that you are different figure indeed whom I have been with almost for two years. Anyway, this finding leaves me a great room( space ) to know/feel you further. This also leaves me an opportunity to understand/realize myself. I find I am again fully active in life and the life is very meaningful. I have written down all my feelings occurring to the journey in Chinese, I try to finish it sooner or later. After 10 years I can manage to write down or catch/capture the feelings which is so beautiful, so nice, so pure and so fresh, I hardly believe it. It is true? These days I sometimes have asked myself again and again about it. it really surprises me. Thanks is not enough to express my feeling from my heart, as you said only very few people can leave their footprints to others. Making you as my truly friend is my life happiness. Let it be on forever.
Sir
Girl,
Do you know when a real concept comes into your mind? Whenever you get a true feeling. Today when I came to Library and sat very closed to you, just like getting the same feeling as we were in the mountain area, I couldn’t help giving you a hug, like one I gave it to you at a house of a farmer, this desire is so irresistible that I hardly acted this afternoon. From this point of view, I hate a city, hate a crowned people surrounding and hate there is no privacy existence between us, all exposed to the public no matter what it is. No way! I found your eyes and eyebrow are very beautiful, attractive and vivid, while you smile and talk, they are alive. I stared at them and appraised them in my heart. They support all your face which seems much good-looking. If no people sat besides, I would give you another a big hug. Tell you true, when I was waiting you at the upstare on the second floor, I promised myself that I would say to you while see you coming up “ Hi, girl, could I give you a friendly hug just like a friend ” But when saw you upcoming, I couldn’t speak it to you though the words was just on the lip already. This is one of differences between city and countryside, everywhere you will feel to be peeped or observed. Here there is no privacy to talk about. I found you exactly get such an old or traditional custom and habit which completely controls you, controls your mind, your behavior and your activity automatically when you are in this city or when you are walking in the street where you are afraid of meeting somebody who is your familiar colleagues or neighbors. This will bring you unease, uncomfortable and upset, and this will push you into such a condition where you feel a great suffer, just like get a pain in body. So called out of control. But did you have this upset feeling while you climbed mountains or visited friend’s house in Ling An? No, absolutely no. This is why you know? This is a difference, city to countryside, peace to noise, idea to idea, traditional to modern, so on and so force. You couldn’t get rid of it, because you live in this society. So called the environment determines where people’s living. I completely understand you and understand myself, both of us are not super persons who are able to get rid of the custom and habit, give up the traditional concept for thousands of years, we live/ grow up ( city born and city bred ) and educate from this society, so called the consciousness determines the existence. That means, example, if you are educated in the western country, you will become more open, you will not be controlled by the traditional concepts. Ok, let talk something much relaxed, but not tonight, it is time to go bed for me. Wish you a wonderful dream and a good sleep. Reading your mail always wakes me up something under conscious which I feel much sweet and nice. Hope to get yours everyday and your minds. Let’s have a deal, minds exchange between us won’t be blamed even too much. What do think of it?!
Sir